I wonder if my chaotic lifestyle is starting to get the best of me. I love change and fluctuation, and despise stability and stagnation. But I’m wondering if the stress this causes is getting to me. I always have something new going. Maybe I need to settle in and just stay the same for a year.

Things with the new grove are going to start taking off soon. For the most part there has been a lot of talk, but starting in the very near future, I think it will transform from talk to action! We have so much to do and plan! I’m looking forward to diving into the mysteries of Cernunnos. So far, I already have a very different view of him than most people I hear speak of him. It seems that no matter what deity I work with, I always find that little kernel of personality that is generally ignored. I found for both Dionysius and Cernunnos there was too much focus on sexuality and silliness. I just feel that that is only one small, and occasionally insignificant aspect.

Work is having ups and downs. A week ago, I was in love with my job and was sad with the idea of moving to Victoria because it would mean leaving my unit. This week I despise my unit and and questioning my plan to work in acute adult health. Nursing is just too busy and exhausting! There’s too much work to do in so little time. It really is to the point of being unsafe for the patients. It is too stressful for the nurse to work in these conditions. I’m so tired of coming home, thinking I did only an adequate job because there wasn’t time to do a good job. I’m craving a slower paced job. I wouldn’t mind an office job, or a corporate nursing job. Something where I could work at a humanly possible pace, and perhaps even work on one project at a time.

I had an amazing b-day weekend. Richard bought me one of those neat mini speaker systems that you plug your ipod into and a guitar.

I decided to buy myself a day in Waterton for my b-day. We stayed at a beautiful hotel right in the middle of the town. The fresh mountain air was exactly what I needed! And it was so fun sharing my favorite place with Richard. We saw Cameron lake, Red Rock Canyon, and of course Waterton lake. I bough fudge, and a book on spirit bears, and a little stuffed owl. And, of course, I had ice wine tea!!! On the way home, we stopped at Frank slide, a place Richard has always wanted to see. I finally got to see that tree that starts the crow’s nest pass.

The strangest part of the trip was that it lacked its usual magical aura. When I wasn’t there for spiritual purposes, while wonderful, it wasn’t as special as usual. Plus! Cameron lake is 1000x more beautiful with snow and ice.

Plans for our move to Victoria have begun. We set an initial date of March 1st 2007. However, this is just a date to attempt. I’m not sure if it will happen. So many factors have to come together. I need to get a job first of all, and then we need to find and apartment. All from a distance. We may decide to stay in a little cheap motel for a month while we transition. So, there’s a lot to plan and do. We still need to get rid of all our stuff! ACK!

I have taken up the guitar again. I’m doing aright…fingers are sore…and too small. But all the chords are starting to come back to me. I have decided to learn scales and more detailed fingering.

I need to start writing some cheesy Spira camp songs! Send all lyrics my way :)