Not a lot has occured in my life in the past couple of days. I suppose it could just be the reality of being the inbetween guy. To drained of energy to go out. To active, and crazy to stay in. Of course, the exhaustion always wins over any desire to leave my residence.

I’ve spent three nights in my sister’s appartment. As usual, I’ve found myself being the object of a lot more flirtations. I even chatted for hours with one man last night. Not sure if he’s my type, but of course I will pursue. He certainly seemed interested in me.

Not much is new with work this week. Except the 100% increase in buisness due to a massive convention occuring at the hotel. These busy days will fortunately make the bottom line for this month easier to take. I remembered the days when I would make fun of people that worried about bottom lines all the live long day.

One of my sister’s cats has finaly decided to be my friends, but I still can’t convince the other cat to come out from under the bed. Oh well, thats just how cats are I suppose.

As you can see, my life has been filled with purely mundane activities. I’m too busy to think about much of anything but work. I’m beginning to crave the melodrama that weekends bring me.

I’ve been entranced by the book “Aradia, or The Gospel of the Witches” Its extremely interesting reading the original words that inspired the entire neo-pagan movement. The most interested note on this book, is that it instructs one to threaten the gods if your wishes are not followed. When, and why did that change? I’ll probably understand once I’ve read the commentaries. I have a strong background in reading religious texts and I found it interesting to see exactly what can be extrapolated into what surrounds the pagan community in the present.

I’ve also been doing a small research into the theories, and pantheons of gods. I truly haven’t found anything exciting to report. I’ve never found pantheons and lists of attributes of the gods could keep my attention. To truly see the light of a God, I need to hear the entire life long tale of the deity. This is why Hinduism fascinated me. There is never a shortage of incredible stories to keep you entertained. Why is it so difficult to find an entire story of a deity?

I had an interesting meditation moment the other night. I always meditate while trying to go to sleep. I’ve tried it eslewhere and not been as successful. So, I simply lie in my bed, and I either fall into a meditation, or I fall asleep. In this particular meditation, I believe I was deeper meditation than ever previously. Nothing truly exciting occured, apart from a complete feeling of separation from my body and a complete awakening of my mind(no, not astral projection…just a lack of my body being there). My mind’s light was completely alone)and a visual of what seemed like a gravel road moving under me extremely fast as though I was flying.

So, I shall continue on in my mundane induced madness, praying that the weekend will be with me soon.

Leo’s Rain