I did something today that I haven’t done in awhile. When my alarm went off, I managed to convince myself, in a half comatose state, that school wasn’t as important as sleep. So, I reset my alarm to noon and slept through school. Of course, when I woke up, I wasn’t too pleased with my stupidity. However, considering I used to do this every couple of days, I shouldn’t be too mad at myself. Its been years since I’ve done this routine. I literally have a conversation with myself weighing the pros and cons of sleeping versus going to work, school, or anything else I’m supposed to do, and somehow, sleep always wins.

So, finally up, I watched Regis and Kelly flipped through the first porn magazine I ever bought. Buying porn is really embarrasing! At the store I browsed the magazines and saw the one I liked. I worked up all my courage and brought the magazine to the counter and with a smile I said “This will be everything”, wondering if there was any possibility that she might not see what the magazine was. I even created a story about a friend who was looking for this particular magazine and couldn’t find it, so I just HAD to buy it for him. I didn’t have to use the story though, she just rang it through like it was a pack of gum and wished me on my way. I’m sure she giggled after I left, but I was LONG gone.

Work was incredibly busy today. There is some sort of convention in town, and its really throwing us for a loop. Even with our recent staff increases, we’re still not keeping up with demand. I used to pray that our store would pick up buisness and we could all keep our jobs. Now its just stressful! Too much buisness, in too short a day.

Lucy is hilarious these days. She’s about four months pregnant, and instead of having huge mood swings, she’s stuck in “bitchy cow mode”. It only pisses her off more when I laugh at her mean statements, and comments that only a drag queen should be able to think of. Does that mean I’ll stop teasing her. Not even a chance. I’m just as good at taking it as I am at dishing it out, and trust me, I have to take it!

I had to watch “Dangerous Liasons” tonight for a sociology project. Great movie, but I just was NOT in the mood for such an intense drama and I found my mind wondering too much. A very bad thing to be happening when the story lines are as complex as they were. I’ll probably have to watch it again before I write the paper. Hopefully I’ll be in the right frame of mind.

So, here I am on a Friday night wishing I could go to the bar. unfortunately for about the third weekend in a row I’m scheduled to work early on the weekend. I just have to continue convincing myself that its better this way. I save immense amounts of money. Also, the bar is more exciting when I DO get to go. Like I’ve said before, the lack of luxuruy makes luxury more luxurious.

I’m leaving my sister’s place in Kensington tomorrow. This session of house sitting is nearly over. I’ll miss Kensington. For the first time housesitting for my sister, I spent a lot of time just wanting to be home. I have created a home for myself and I missed it. This neighborhood grows on you fast though. All it takes is one walk. Browsing the used book stores and the numerable nick nack havens, and you can’t help but fall in love with the atmosphere. I bet that if I lived here, I’d grow bored of its style. So, perhaps its better if I make Kensington a luxury also.

I’m supposed to go to a friend of mine’s birthday celebration, and I truly want to. I just don’t have time. Between work, cleaning my sister’s appartment, doing laundry and moving back to my appartment, I just can’t make it. I’ve never felt this bad about not being able to make something I promised to be at. Probably because I rarely if ever don’t go to something I’ve promised to be at!

Anyways, just a lot of simple rambling about my mundane day. My “older brother” and “alternate self” from my previous post are still on my mind. I wonder if I should be more like them, or more like me. I always wanted an older brother to worship. Why does he have to be real? Or is that unhealthy?

Leo