Except for about an hour last night (and I still don’t know why), I have been in an incredible mood the last couple days. Even when crappy things have happened, I have been able to just shrug it off. I feel more like myself the last couple days than I have for months. I think it’s because I am lacking the stress of school.

Yesterday I worked a nursing attendant shift. Even though I keep thinking back at things that should have made me mad, I can’t help but admit I had a wonderful day.

One annoying moment happened when I was helping an RN and a physiotherapist get a patient standing for the first time in a couple weeks. Trust me, not as easy as you may think! Especially when the patient is a 300 pound man. I was listening to the physiotherapist’s instruction that she was giving to the man so that I would be able to help support/spot him. During this, the RN held out a hospital bootie (the blue, papery, disposable kind) in front of me, with the hopes I would take it and put it on the patient. I was just too focused on the physiotherapist and didn’t notice until the physiotherapist took the bootie and started putting it on the patient.

“Sorry!” I said to the RN, and then I joked, “I didn’t take that hint very well!”
“Well maybe next time you’ll pay attention so that you can do your job properly!” She snapped.

All I could think was, “Wow, you’re an incredible bitch!” and then reminded myself it was my last nursing attendant shift ever.

I was in a great mood though, and I just kept smiling while I did my job. One of the reasons I was so happy was because one of my favorite patients was so kind to me when I told her it was my last shift as an NA. I told her that next time I saw her (if she was still there), I would be the one giving her the drugs! She told me how wonderful I was, and how grateful she was that I was the only one who would ever give her hair a shampoo. Then her daughters came in later and stopped me to congratulate me and tell me I have been so wonderful.

It’s just so rewarding and makes everything worth it in the end!

Mostly, it was a great day because the unit was quiet and peaceful. I was able to work at a slow, casual, comfortable pace. The staff had time to talk to patients and joke around with each other. It’s amazing how fast staff morale can skyrocket when that happens.

So, today is Beltane! Fertility is everywhere! Days are getting longer and warmer. I had a good week leading up until today, and then completely forgot that today was Beltane. I planted a whole bunch of herbs that I’m hoping will grow up throughout the summer. Then, I repotted and fed all my other growing plants. Then, on Saturday, R. and I went to Golden Acres to buy a bunch of flowers. We decided to buy big containers, and mix some flowers into them and place them on the balcony. They turned out so incredibly beautiful!!! Our balcony is now our own personal (Even if sparse) garden.

I also found mature rosemary bushes at Golden Acres. YES! ROSEMARY! My all time favorite herb! So now I have a one foot high by one foot wide rosemary bush that I planted in a big clay pot and placed on my deck.

My biggest goal last week (besides going earthy and sewing the seeds of flowers, herbs, and plants) was to finally clear out and organize our spare bedroom. The main reason for this is because once I do, I want to create, for the first time in my life, my very own altar. I was going to have a table with a black cloth, candles, my emergent tile, candles, and whatever else I decided. Unfortunately, because I’m a big whiny lazy baby when I’m sick, I did none of this last week. I wanted it done by Beltane so I could do my first ritual today and consecrate my alter.

*sigh*

I think I will have to make that my project this week, and since I’m not celebrating Beltane officially until Sunday, I still have time to carry out my plans.

I really do feel so earthy and spiritual lately, which is not like me. I don’t tend to feel spiritual until the fall months, and when I do, it’s never usually in an earthy way. But I’ve felt such a drive the last couple weeks to plant things, play with dirt, and create life. It’s intense, and fun, and I can’t wait until my herbs are mature so that I can work with them.

Life is just so exciting right now! YAY!