I truly don’t think I’ve experienced a busier time in my life than I have in the last few weeks. In fact, I’m SO busy that I’m just going to jot down a few updates.

The biggest news I suppose is that one of my cats died. His name was Noel, and he was about seventeen years old. We rescued him when he was just a kitten with dirty hair and bruises. He’s always been the big tomcat “man” of our cat family. He always got into fights with neighbours cats and was never clean. About a week and a half ago I was visiting my parents and I looked into his eyes and I “knew” he was dying. There was a one dimensional aspect to his eyes that made it seem as though he was giving up and that he was simply waiting for physical death. I told my parents they should take him in and when they did the vet said he has a tumour in his mouth and they would half to amputate half his jaw, as well, he was pretty sure he was experiencing renal failure and would need surgery. Well, when a cat is seventeen, this means quite obviously that he is put down.

As for moving…we’re done…sort of. We have all the actual stuff moved over and all thats left is a little unpacking and cleaning of the old appartment. Actually, all my stuff was moved last Thursday, and for the last week we’ve been moving load after load of Jason’s stuff. My stuff was also unpacked and put away last Thursday, so all we’ve been doing is unpacking Jason’s CRAP! My fuse is getting shorter and shorter because he refuses to get rid of ANYTHING…I won’t go into detail, but normal people just don’t keep this kind of garbage. Also, I thought that moving in to this place would make a more egalitarian roomate situation, because we moved in at the same time, instead of me moving into his place last time. Well, nooooope! Again, I don’t have time to describe the crap he says to me, but I’ll just say that although I’m paying half the rent, I only feel like a guest in his home.

That being said…I am happier than EVER in our new home. Although I made it sound bad, we are completely in love with our new place and all I want to do is spend every waking moment enjoying the amazing atmosphere of our little place. I can’t describe how much I love it there, and we’re especially excited about decorating the outside of our house for Christmas! We may be here for many many years to come.

Work…well…work is horrible as always, it just seems to get in the way of everything else going on in life. However, with the rest of my life feeling as though I’m floating in space not knowing what direction I’m going, I try to count on work to be the one thing I can do with my eyes closed. It represents stability. Unfortunately, people keep quitting, people keep not showing up for work, and the person who took over from me is a disappointment (To me anyways, his head is WAY up our manager’s ASS!). So, even work is a source of stress, because I’m continually having to take over my old duties when all I want to do is be a pee-on

Yoga…I don’t know how that is…its the fartheset down on my list of priorities, so it has been getting skipped lately. I’m just so busy that at least one thing had to give, and yoga had to be it. I’ll return to it soon enough.

Singing lessons! ACK! What can I say except pure terror at the though that there’s only about three weeks until the recital and I’m nowherhe NEAR being prepared. I’m very afraid that I will be making a fool out of myself. We had a master class and I had to sing in front of people (who were all amazing singers) and I definately wasn’t good. I know I haven’t been doing this for long, but if there’s one thing I’m a perfectionist in, its music. So, not being the best at something musical is traumatizing. I refuse to quit though, I’ve taken that route out in life WAY too many times. In fact I’m just about to go and practice for a little while. Perhaps it will simply be humbling to get up on stage and try this. If thats the only lesson I get out of this, then so be it!

School…Somehow I fit school into all this, and somehow I’m doing okay. I didn’t do so good in an exam today, but it wasn’t worth many marks, so I’m not really stressed out about it. I’m doing extremely well in that class already. I do have three more midterms in the next few days.

Sorry I seem so distant everyone. With this much on my mind, trying to fit everything in and give everything one hundred pecent, I find myself becoming super flaky and unable to perform the simplest mundane tasks. I’m always thinking three days ahead of what is actually going on in front of me.

Unfortunately, a day off from everything doesn’t seem to be anywhere in the future, unless I quit my job. Once school’s done I will probably be working every single day for a month. Including Christmas day.

Okay, if you made it this far…thanks for listening…and have a good day!